Lucy's birthday has finally arrived! I came to the hospital to complete all the pre-op paperwork as planned. Unfortunately I think my nerves got the best of me. My blood pressure started at 136/81 and made a steady rise over the next couple of hours. By the time they decided to admit me it was 156/110. The good news is that within a few hours it was back down to 122/79...the bad news is I was already stuck here for the night.
I have so many emotions right now. Part of me still hasn't realized we are having a baby in a matter of hours. We are so excited to meet our baby girl, but so nervous about everything she will have to deal with in her first days of life. Part of me wishes we could fast forward a few weeks to when we are hopefully both well on the road to recovery and relaxing at home. I am frustrated and sad that after delivery we won't have our sweet little pink baby in the room with us for visitors to ooh and ahh over. I just want everything to be ok, and not to feel the weight of the world on my shoulders. We have been dealing with nothing but "wait and see" for months now. It is somewhat comforting to know that she will be here and we will be dealing with concrete problems instead of worrying about unknowns.
I keep trying to picture her little face. I know that once we meet our daughter we will forget there ever was a time she wasn't part of our family. I am so excited and anxious and nervous. Its 1:30am, I should be sleeping but I'm ready to have a baby!!!
